i havent blogged in over a year .
but i realllllllyy need to rant or im going to implode with anger

fmylife .. like seriously.
does it just happen to me or what?
why do some people seem to make my life so terrible even when they arent doing anything wrong.
no .. actually ..its cos they DONT do anything ..
i hate you . i like you . i dont even fucking know what im suppose to feel anymore
why cant it heal ? why do you make it so difficult for me to approach?

if it werent for what used to be , i would have patched things up with you like i would with any other person.
but u not like anyone else .. ur .. different , special in a sense .

you make me weak . you make me vulnerable and emotional . you make me fucking frustrated and incompetant of expressing myself .
i dont like it , althought its not alien to me anymore .

please , i beg of you , please , fix this broken thing we call friendship .

talk to me and it will all get better .

i miss us so much.